Random thoughts on random days.....
August 07, 2005 Well I just posted earlier about a 2 pound loss and
you would think that I would be in a great mood all day about that...but once again, my old thinking started creeping in and
I had a moment of madness. My all time favorite thing to do is eat out. I guess that is probably how I got to
the size I am...but I love eating out. And lately, IHOP has been my passion. They finally came into town
about a year ago...and the thought of pancakes 24 hours a day, and endless coffee has seduced me like no man ever could.
SO this morning I decided that I wanted us to go out to eat at IHOP. Granted I didn't exactly tell Ken that I wanted
to do this...but I hinted around it so much that you would have thought that he could have figured it out. AND...Ken
knows how much I love to eat out at IHOP. The problem is...he doesn't. I guess I shouldn't say he doesn't...it's
just that he doesn't obsess about food the way I do. I guess that is why he is the size he is!
I wish I could tell you how it felt to realize that the plan I had launched in my head wasn't
going to happen. DAMN! I lost 2 pounds, I have been exercising every day since Tuesday....you would think I could
get a little reward like IHOP! But alas...once I kind of, sort of, mentioned going OUT to eat...Ken announced that he
wanted to just eat microwave popcorn at home! This has to be what people that don't have money for drugs feel like.
I was in panic! And MAD! I wanted so much to just run down to the local convenience store and buy 6 donuts and
a chocolate milk to wash them down with. THIS was how my life use to be. I don't know what came over me...I put
my shoes on, announced to Ken that I was going to go out and pick up a coffee *wink*...and proceded to go upstairs and
put in my Walk Away the Pounds video. Suddenly I was walking with Leslie Sansone and doing something that I hadn't planned
on doing today...and that was exercising! I hated that I was doing this...and when Ken called upstairs and asked what
I was doing...I yelled down, ''I'm walking to IHOP''. Not sure if I made my point or not....but I kept walking and within
5 minutes of starting, I was better about not going to IHOP. I finished up my walk, and made myself
a healthy breakfast of old fashioned oatmeal topped with non fat, no sugar added yogurt.
Now I am better...I survived....and lived to tell about it.
